This Holiday Season marks the end of three tough years for me. Time to begin again. Cleanse away the old stale memories and energy. Discard the patterns that do not work to enhance my being. Put into perspective the choices made in the past and how those choices created the space I find myself today. Know I am in control of making my life different. Know I can do this. Beginning again, or over, or just beginning. Leaving what is not needed, wanted, useful behind. Looking into the sunrise and shouting YES!! Join me in this renewal of self. Renewal of pure self. Renewal of love, life, and joyous being. Begin again with me.

As this year draws to a close, I am meditating on what I truely want my life to be. Remembering, "you get what you notice." I do like the premise used by the Law of Attraction. I would like to be really good at attracting into my life the joy I seek. So, for myself, I will renew my meditation patterns, and review the Law of Attaction belief. Be still two and notice. Let go of any negative ties from the past. 

Dalia Lama states "there is only two days in the year when nothing can be done. One is called Yesterday and one is called Tomorrow, so today is the right day to love, beleive, do and mostly live." I will live today, in the moment. Join me?

I have sent you my invi­ta­tion, the note inscribed on the palm of my hand by the fire of liv­ing. Don’t jump up and shout, “Yes, this is what I want! Let’s do it!” Just stand up qui­etly and dance with me.

Show me how you fol­low your deep­est desires, spi­ral­ing down into the ache within the ache. And I will show you how I reach inward and open out­ward to feel the kiss of the Mys­tery, sweet lips on my own, everyday.

Don’t tell me you want to hold the whole world in your heart. Show me how you turn away from mak­ing another wrong with­out aban­don­ing your­self when you are hurt and afraid of being unloved.

Tell me a story of who you are, And see who I am in the sto­ries I am liv­ing. And together we will remem­ber that each of us always has a choice.

Don’t tell me how won­der­ful things will be … some day. Show me you can risk being com­pletely at peace, truly OK with the way things are right now in this moment, and again in the next and the next and the next…

I have heard enough war­rior sto­ries of heroic dar­ing. Tell me how you crum­ble when you hit the wall, the place you can­not go beyond by the strength of your own will. What car­ries you to the other side of that wall, to the frag­ile beauty of your own humanness?

And after we have shown each other how we have set and kept the clear, healthy bound­aries that help us live side by side with each other, let us risk remem­ber­ing that we never stop silently lov­ing those we once loved out loud.

Take me to the places on the earth that teach you how to dance, the places where you can risk let­ting the world break your heart. And I will take you to the places where the earth beneath my feet and the stars over­head make my heart whole again and again.

Show me how you take care of busi­ness with­out let­ting busi­ness deter­mine who you are. When the chil­dren are fed but still the voices within and around us shout that soul’s desires have too high a price, let us remind each other that it is never about the money.

Show me how you offer to your peo­ple and the world the sto­ries and the songs you want our children’s chil­dren to remem­ber, and I will show you how I strug­gle not to change the world, but to love it.

Sit beside me in long moments of shared soli­tude, know­ing both our absolute alone­ness and our unde­ni­able belong­ing. Dance with me in the silence and in the sound of small daily words, hold­ing nei­ther against me at the end of the day.

And when the sound of all the dec­la­ra­tions of our sin­cer­est inten­tions has died away on the wind, dance with me in the infi­nite pause before the next great inhale of the breath that is breath­ing us all into being, not fill­ing the empti­ness from the out­side or from within.

Don’t say, “Yes!” Just take my hand and dance with me.
~ Oriah Moun­tain Dreamer
 

Everything happens for a reason, or so I have heard. There are times when I really hope that is not true. Today I am a believer. In my heart I know that is true. Not necessarily as our lives having no force of our own, but more that we attract into our lives what is there. Unknowingly perhaps, but I do believe we are not predestined or life is just chance. Today I found my meditation cassettes by Lazaris. The cassette player I had chosen to keep ate them…wound them up and ate them. I kept reminding myself, between expletives, things happen for a reason. In the process of shopping for new Lazaris on CD…I discovered some free downloads by him along with my beloved Discovering your Subconscious on a download. Here is the free meditation, just 5 minutes long, On Being Loved.
http://shop.lazaris.com/mp3s/WorkshopExcerpts/9310.mp3